BUT I'M HAPPY NOW

Electric Bonsai Band - Yellow Tail 10004

But I'm Happy Now
Isn't It Sad
Comfort Me
I Am My Dad
If A Tree Falls
Guardian Angel

This Is What Love Is For
The King Of Love
Midas Touch
Creatures Of Habit
Puberty Wars
True Believer


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But I'm Happy Now

I cut my arm
I almost died
But with a bandaid and a kiss
You came to save me
And there was hope
And there was time
There was a chance to use
The wondrous gifts God gave me
I held my breath
I held my tongue
But with an elbow to my ribs
You would remind me
That there was life
That there was love
That there were other people waiting
Right behind me

(You used to tell us that the end of the world was near)
I used think that it was all gonna blow somehow
(You used to sing about a world full of hate and fear)
I used to think of all the misery that God allowed
But I'm happy now

I used to fight
I used to curse
But with a whack across my nose
You would console me
From left to right
From bad to worse
I felt release from all the things
That used to hold me
I was on fire
You fanned the flames
But with a momentary lapse
You stopped my shaking
And there was truth
And there was fame
There was a world out there
To help with my awakening

(You used to tell us that the people in the world were sheep)
I used to think that they were lambs to the slaughterhouse
(You used to tell us that you counted us in your sleep)
I used to wonder what the agony was all about
But I'm happy now

Without my sneer Without my smirk
Without my jeers Without my quirks
Without the fears Without the leers
Without the jerks Without the tears
Without the peers Without the perks

(You used to tell us we were all gonna fade away)
I used to think that I was far from the maddening crowd
(You used to sing about the things that we couldn't say)
I used to wonder 'bout a heaven that was filled with doubt
But I'm happy now

Isn't It Sad

They must have loved each other once
Although it's hard to know for sure
'Cause there were strangers in their eyes
And there were lovers at the door

Isn't it sad
Isn't it so, so, sad
They want each other madly
That's just too bad

She was the woman of his dreams
He was her prince in shiny white
But there were skeletons in closets
There were secrets out of sight
Isn't it sad
Isn't it so, so, sad
They want each other madly
That's just too bad

And no one would believe it
If they'd seen it with their eyes
How they cover up old promises
With brand new alibis
Isn't it sad

Now there's a husband in the basement
There's a wife who lives upstairs
And there's a lawyer in the kitchen
There to sort out the affairs
Isn't it sad
Isn't it so, so, sad
They want each other madly
That's just too bad


Comfort Me

I need a place to call home
Give me the half-hearted smile
I need a place to come down
For a little while
Give me the luck of the draw
I've done so well on my own
I need a face I can trust
when I'm alone

Is anybody gonna comfort me
Is anybody gonna comfort me
Is anybody gonna comfort me
Now that I'm lost and lonely
Is anybody gonna comfort me
Is anybody gonna comfort me
Is anybody gonna comfort me

I need place to call home
Give me a life to begin
I need a place when I'm tired
And the skin is thin
Give me a face I can read
I've seen some terrible sights
Give me a reason to breathe
When it's late at night

Is anybody gonna comfort me
Is anybody gonna comfort me
Is anybody gonna comfort me
Now that I'm lost and lonely
Is anybody gonna comfort me
Is anybody gonna comfort me
Is anybody gonna comfort me
Now that I've lost control
If not the weight of the world
If not the trick of the light
If not the sign of the times
I could be somewhere tonight
Here at the end of the line
Here at the peak of my form
I'm at the prime of my life
Here in the eye of the storm

Is anybody gonna comfort me
Is anybody gonna comfort me
Is anybody gonna comfort me
Now that I'm lost and lonely
Is anybody gonna comfort me
Is anybody gonna comfort me
Is anybody gonna comfort me

I need a place to call home
I've left scene of the crime
I need a face I can trust
With all this time


I Am My Dad

The ties get wider
The pants get tight
I look inside but the memory stalls
The shirts get brighter
The pants turn white
It's almost winter Miami calls

The belts get bigger
As does the waist
I never figured on being this vast
Look in the mirror
That's not my face
It's happened so hard and so fast

And I, I, I
I am my dad
Yes I, I, I
I am my dad

The eyes get weaker
The cheeks get pink
The hair gets thinner, what hair still remains
I can't wear sneakers
I start to shrink
The ground gets closer with every day

And I, I, I
I am my dad
Yes I, I, I
I am my dad

Though the signs may seem blurry
When out on the highway
Don't tell me I'm legally blind
There's no need to worry
We'll make it through my way
We'll straddle that dotted white line

The pulse gets quicker
The ankles creak
I grab my slippers when I have to run
The blood gets thicker
The bladder's weak
It's passed on from father to son

And I, I, I
I am my dad
Yes I, I, I
I am my dad


If A Tree Falls

Call the nurse
Call the preacher
This is just the calm before the storm
Find my wife
I tried to reach her
Tell her this is not another false alarm

With the churning in my stomach
And the ringing in my head
If I had to see this day again
You know I think I'd stay in bed

Place the call
Face the answer
This just hasn't been my lucky year
I bite the hand
And I fight the cancer
And watch the things around me disappear
With a spirit that keeps spiraling
And all the body breaks
If I had to do it all again
You know I'd make the same mistakes

And if a tree falls, And if a tree falls
And if a tree falls in the forest it'll land on me

Take the plunge
Make some motion
Keep your eyes on all the warning signs
Stake the claim
And fake emotion
Everybody reads between the lines

Well the new ones bring depression
And the old ones bring me down
If I had to swim that sea of love
Well you know I'd probably drown

And if a tree falls, And if a tree falls
And if a tree falls in the forest it'll land on me

And if I keep my eyes closed
And if I keep my mouth shut
How can the bad things trickle in
Just when it can't get colder
There turns another shoulder
And all the gold I'm holding turns to tin

So call the nurse
Call the papers
And try to think of something new to say
Fall in step
And call in favors
And count the ones who look the other way

With an instinct to remember
And a loathing to forgive
If I tried to take my life tonight
Well you know I'd probably live

And if a tree falls, And if a tree falls
And if a tree falls in the forest it'll land on me


Guardian Angel

He passed the tower when he heard her whine
She lowered her hair down so he made the climb
She pulled him quickly to her favorite corner
Where the air was sickly and the night was warmer
She knew from the start
She'd have to break his heart
He wouldn't know what hit him
If the room stayed dark

Now people told him don't you go up there
You'll get a legal tangle and a mess of hair
But he started swimming towards the siren's calling
As the lights were dimming and the hair was falling
She knew from his face
She'd have to feel the rage
He wouldn't know what hit him
'Til she told her age

Guardian Angel of the Disney Channel
Turned a ring of fire into a ring of flannel
She was all grown up then she was sweet sixteen
And nothing lasts forever
Nothing lasts forever but the dream

Well the palace tabloid had it all confused
But the king was angry when he read the news
The prince was guilty 'cause he'd spoiled the fable
When he shocked the kingdom, when he robbed the cradle
He knew from the first
That she could quench his thirst
He didn't know what hit him
When the bubble burst

Guardian Angel of the children's hour
Made a Shirley Temple from a Whisky Sour
She was more the woman than he'd ever seen
But nothing lasts forever
Nothing lasts forever but the dream

She let her hair down 'til her father caught her
With her cigarillo and her scotch and water
With the fading values that her mother taught her
And a prince all wrapped around his youngest daughter
Oh Guardian Angel of the fading glory
First it's statuesque and then it's statutory
First it's sleight of hand and then it's might have been
And nothing lasts forever
Nothing lasts forever but the dream


This Is What Love Is For

She keeps the ring on her finger
She keeps her eye on the door
She keeps a light in the window
Though she knows it's a little cliche
She's sees herself in the mirror
Just the way that she's seen her before
And it looks like it's gonna be
A long cold winter

This is what love is for
You can never hold on too tight
And she's dreaming in black and white
See the colorless eyes
This is what love is for
As far as the eye can see
This is what love can be
(It's the way of the world)

She feels the days getting shorter
That's why the nights feel so long
She feels a little bit stronger
But she knows that it's going to fade
She waits for him in the darkness
And knows she must have done something wrong
And it looks like the world is gonna
Keep on spinning

And she says this is what love is for
You can never hold on too tight
If he's there with the morning light
He'll have colorless eyes
This is what love is for
As far as the eye can see
This is what love can be
It's the way of the world

In the dark
At the end of the tunnel
In the rain
With the flash of the lightening
All the pain
All the thunder inside her
All that time
So much time

This is what love is for
You can never hold on too tight
But she's sleeping alone tonight
With her colorless eyes
This is what love is for
As far as the eye can see
And this is what love can be
It's the way of the word


The King Of Love

All the girls
Say it's no disgrace
Meeting face to face
With the man who sets the pace
And the girls
Line up on the wall
At the beck and call
Of the man who's got it all
And everyone who's had the pleasure
Knows the passionate things you do
Every girl who's crashed the party
Knows how much you think of you

All the boys
Searching for a date
Watch you throw your weight
(So much there to hate)
And the boys
Seem to know the score
Been through this before
Hate you even more
Every action brings reaction
Every passion thrashes through
Every girl who's crashed and burned
Has learned to keep her eye on you

'Cause you could be the prince of darkness
You could be the prince of pain
You could be the king of fools
Who pulls the women back again
You could be the prince in white
That every girl's been dreaming of
You must be the king of love

All the girls
Like to watch you dance
Waiting for the chance
For their big romance
And the boys
Never make a sound
Have to wait around
For the big rebound
Every girl who's soaring higher
Every girl who's bursting through
Every girl who's crashed to earth
Has learned what passion's worth to you

You could be the prince of darkness
You could be the prince of pain
You could be the king of fools
Who pulls the women back again
You could be the prince in white
That every girl's been dreaming of
You must be the king of love

All that primping, All that preening
All that prowess, All that praise
Love so limp, Love careening
Love's a pasture lovers graze
Love that's rough, Love that hovers
Love that covers everything
All that love, All those lovers
Love to make the man the king

You could be the prince of darkness
You could be the prince of pain
You could be the king of hearts
Who starts the women back again
You could be the king of kings
Who worships women from above
You must be the king of love


Midas Touch

How many hearts have you broken
How many men have you lost
How many times have we spoken
When I couldn't get the point across
How many times have we stood here
Waiting for your prince to arrive
How many shoulders to cry on
Does it take to keep the dream alive

How many tears have you tasted
How many drinks have we shared
How many nights have been wasted
'Cause you thought that there was no one there
How many times will you call me
Looking for a little relief
How many nights will I wait here
Smiling in disbelief

You go home to your lover
I go home to my room
You go home to discover
If you've spoken too soon
I will wait in the window
'Cause there's nothing that I can do

How many times have I wondered
How many years it would take
'That you'll see the delusion you're under
That you wouldn't make the same mistake
How many times must I watch you
Throwing all your secrets away
How many men will it take you
To save them for a rainy day

You go back to your lover
I go back to my home
You go back to recover
From those evenings alone
You can choose where you find me
I'm so used to being on my own

And I feel like I'm lost in the middle
Just a little bit caught in the crush
Watching you working
Searching for the Midas Touch

And with all the perfect strangers
Who are vying for attention
You will learn that nothing changes
'Cept the names you have to mention
There is safety in the numbers
There is safety being sure
That there's a safety net below you
That will save you from the cure

And the only real advantage
In returning to the fold
Is the words you take for granted
And the shelter from the cold
You will back away until you're
Facing someone more familiar
Who will fill your dreams of loneliness
With promises of gold

You'll go on with your lovers
I'll go on with the fight
You'll go under the covers
Just to stay out of sight
I will be there like a shadow
'Cause I'm so tired of saying good night
Why would you choose
Someone who loves you too little
Over someone who loves you too much°
Leaping and lurching, Searching for the Midas Touch
Leaping and lurching, Searching for the Midas Touch


Creatures Of Habit

We held our breath for hours and hours
With adolescent lungs
And all the rhymes of younger times
Came tripping off our tongues
But we lost some sight, we lost some timing
Backed away from social climbing
All the way from saccharine to sweet
This is not an honorable defeat

We watched the TV closer, closer
Read by candlelight
Held our views and turned the screws
And served our appetite
But we lost some height, we lost some courage
Grew so tired of being discouraged
All the way from nursery to grave
This is how the old-at-heart behave

Creatures of habit
Suffering our conceits
All we learn from history is history repeats
Creatures of habit , Creatures of habit

We held our breath for hours and hours
In adolescent truth
All the cars and lovers scars
Were symbols of our youth
But we lost some strength, we lost some hearing
Lost the things we thought endearing
All the way from dangerous to dumb
This could be the best of what will come

Creatures of habit
Calm and incomplete
All we learn from history is history repeats
Creatures of habit , Creatures of habit

All the way from saint to second-hand
This is not the way that it was planned
Less to lose and less to plunder
Only dreams to pull us under

(Creatures of habit)
Almost obsolete
All we learn from history is history repeats
Creatures of habit , Creatures of habit


Puberty Wars

In the corner of the gymnasium
She looked a little like the Mona Lisa
Girls on the one side, boys on the other
Nothing in the middle but the valley of death
Stolen kisses by a dark locker room
She felt a little like a fallen angel
Only the prettiest talk to the prettiest
And laugh at the pimple boy
Losing his breath

In the balcony of the auditorium
She tried to smile as her heart beat faster
Boys on the one side, boys on the other
Sitting in the middle of a dream come true
Broken promises that taste like poison
She knew the pressure would be there forever
Only the purest could survive the deluge
And stand all the pleasure of the rendezvous

I never knew how the bad boys did it
Got the prettiest women, got the fastest cars
She wanted danger but she couldn't admit it
Just another victim of the puberty wars

In the back of an empty classroom
She said she knew that it was habit forming
Boys on the outside, boys on the inside
Staring down the barrel of a loaded question
Token promises that taste like sugar
She drank the water but it tasted like wine
Only the virginal could understand it
Trying not to blush at the wrong suggestion

I never knew how the bad boys did it
Got the prettiest women, got the fastest cars
She wanted danger but she couldn't admit it
Just another victim of the puberty wars

Frantic dancing with the schoolboy armada
A fear of romance and a head full of sin
Careless glancing at persona non grata
With black leather pants and cadaver skin
Awkward advancing, she's a perfect piñata
Lips dry and chapped with unquenchable thirst
Precious prancing to some silent sonata
She's ready to burst, she's ready to burst

In the corner of the gymnasium
She felt a little like a broken record
Girls on the one side, boys on the other
No one likes to be the first to play the fool
Stolen glances by a dark boiler room
She knew for certain she would live forever
Only the experienced run with the experienced
And laugh at the others on the way to school


True Believer

I met a true believer
Who I thought would try to save me
So I turned my coldest shoulder
But I guess that he forgave me
And I know
And I know here
I'm part of all the things I fear

I met a true believer
Who watched me from a distance
And he offered me some comfort
But I offered my resistance
And I know
And I know this
I am made of all the things I've missed

You save who you want to save
And serve who you need to serve
You will take a higher road to heaven
I will get what ever I deserve

I met a true believer
Who was never any danger
And I thought he'd try to change me
So I acted like a stranger
And I know
And I know now
I will be the things that I allow

You see what you want to see
And serve who you need to serve
You will be whatever you have planned for
I will get whatever I deserve

And all the king's horses
And all the king's men
Can't pull the pieces together
All of the lines have been severed
Lost in the darkness forever
We rally the forces
Then come out again
'Til all of the icons are battered
All of the people who mattered
Are tossed to the cross wind and scattered

We say what we need to say
And serve who we need to serve
You will find an angel at the crossroads
I will get whatever I deserve

 

°from "Chilly Scenes of Winter"
by Ann Beattie (from Movie Version)


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